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[MamaGoofy]

Hello. I have a couple questions about miscarriage. I think I miscarried yesterday but I am not sure. I have been cramping and bleeding since last Thursday. Yesterday I went to the doctor and had yet another exam and about 1-2 hours later I started bleeding again. This time there were some clots on the tissue and the cramping had gotten a little more severe; along with that I was having some lower back pain. I have been on bed rest all week long because my dr thought I may be trying to miscarry. Now I am not sure if I did or not. How can you tell? Does it hurt? Should I go to the ER or call my doctor? I just need to know what is going on with my body. The not knowing is killing me. :mope:

[~Jenn]

:sadhug: Melissa, I have no advice for you, but I wanted you to know that you're in my thoughts and prayers. :sadhug:

[MamaGoofy]

Thank you Jenn!! :bighug:

[Lette]

Melissa... :bighug:

I'd definitely call the doc and get an ultrasound.

I had a m/c with my first baby and I had lots of clotting and bleeding. It wasn't extremely painful (physically), it just felt like I was having a really bad AF. :(

I'm so sorry you're going through this!

[Kathryn]

:bighug: Melissa... I am sorry you are going through this... :bighug:

My m/c was about the same as Lette... Very painful cramping, clotting and bright red blood...

I had to have an u/s and that's when it was determined I had a m/c...

:bighug:

[~Jenn]

Just checking in, Melissa. :bighug:

[Bev]

Sorry to hear of this Melissa. :hug99:

[MamaGoofy]

Thanks you guys! :hug99: I did call my doctor yesterday. He was out of the office for scheduled sections and whatnot. I made an appointment for first thing Monday morning. I continued cramping, bleeding and passing clots into Friday evening. I am just so very sad. It will be a miracle if I didn't loose this baby. Thank you again for all of your support and hugs. It really does help.

[stass]

:hug99:

[MamaGoofy]

Well it's official. I saw my doctor this morning and he said my levels only went up about 200. They were 1115 and Thursday they were up to about 1425. They should have been in the 2200 range. He checked me out and confirmed that I did indeed miscarry. He gave me a hug and told me that everything would be ok. I could try again as soon as I had my first period (medically) but it would be up to me (emotionally) as to when we would actually try. He told me to "resume my normal life". I asked him how does one do that. He patted my knee and told me "one day at a time." He asked if there was anything he could do for me, which I said no, and he left for me to get dressed. I cried for a little bit. I knew what he was going to say but somehow hearing the "official" word just wasn't that easy. It was final. I had indeed lost our child. A pang of guilt washed over me, briefly. I quickly shook it away and told myself that I did everything in my power to keep our child. I was on bedrest and I did what I was told. I couldn't have done anything else. It was in God's hands and it just wasn't meant to be this time. I did go to church yesterday. I felt like I needed to be there. Boy did I. I swear the pastor was preaching directly to me. It did my soul good to be there. I am so glad I went!

Well, I am doing ok. Very sad but all in all I am doing ok. I just need to move on. I go thru bouts of tears and then numbness. I guess this is all normal. I know that everything will be just fine. My husband is doing about the same but without the tears (or for at least what I can see). He truly has been my rock thru all of this. I now know why God sent him to me. He is truly an amazing man. He has kept strong thru all this sorrow and some how brought a smile to my face when I thought I would never smile again. I thank God for him! My little David, well he is doing better. He started reverting to babyhood(is that a word). He was getting really clingy, whiney and even started asking for a bottle. I spent all day Friday and Saturday with him alone. I think it really helped! He seemed a lot better today.

You guys have been great. I really appreciate everyone stopping by and thinking of me. :bighug: Between you guys, my husband and the rest of my family, I will get thru this. Thank you again for everything. You have no idea how much you all mean to me!!

[Bev]

I'm sorry to hear the news, but it seems like you have a very kind and caring doctor. :hug99:

[ali]

I am terribly sorry for you and your families loss. Please take all the time you need to heal. The time that you would give to someone you love, give it to yourself... My heart and thoughts are with you and your family. :angel1: Our litttle ones are above protecting and watching over us. One day we will be able to meet them. You sound as you are a remarkably strong women. Take care. I send my wishes.
ali

[MamaGoofy]

I came back to work Tuesday. My team gave me 2 dozen yellow long stem roses in a gorgeous pitcher vase, a card and the rest of the money that they collected (about $30). I work with such a great group of people. I am still hanging in there. About the same. Last night I lost my patience with David. I ended up screaming at him at the top of my lungs because he had been crying and throwing a fit for 40 minutes and I just couldn't take it any longer. Finally on my way back from Walmart I pulled over and just sobbed :bawled: About 10 minutes later I calmed myself down, unstrapped David from his car seat and hugged him. I couldn't believe I had taken my saddness and frustration out on my little man. It's not his fault that I am hurting, besides he was tired and cranky. I should have known better than to bring him with me in the first place. So after chilling out and calming him down we headed home. I felt like such a butthead.

Thank you Bev, Bretta and Ali for your kind words. You have no idea how much it means to me and helps me! Thank you for all your prayers. I hope this sorrow passes quickly.

:hug99:

[SarahK]

:hug99: I'm so sorry for your loss. Please don't feel bad for getting upset with David--I'm sure your little guy knows how much his mommy loves him...but even mommies get upset, especially in situations like yours.

[Cat]

:hug99: I am so sorry for your loss

[Shnooky]

I'm sorry for your loss.

I've found a good book that has been helping me called "Grieving the Child I never Knew" It's a devotional (about 30 devotions), and it helps you through the grieving process step by step.