Not sure I want to try anymore...

[Jennie]

I've had 2 chemical or early miscarriages since Sept 2003 and we had one late 1st trimester m/c in early 2002 between viable pregnancies. I'm honestly not sure I can go through another loss.

I know that we are very blessed with twins who just turned 5 and another beautiful son who is 13 months old and I truly am not sure whether or not we are done. I think my head knows or says it is done but my heart isn't sure.

Is anyone else feeling that they are done?

[Brooke]

Oh, Jennie. I'm so sorry for your losses and I'm sorry you're having these feelings. I'm sure it's a very hard decision to make. :bighug:

[harmonielyn]

Oh Jennie :bighug: Ive been following you since I joined UB over a year ago. You're such a strong woman and I admire you for that. Im sorry for you losses. You will have support no matter what you choose todo. :bighug:

[kalm]

Jennie, I posted in your journal that I understand where you're coming from. I too am blessed with twins, as you know. They took a lot to have in our lives and I know we are super blessed. I've also had two miscarriages and desperately want another baby...but am not sure it will happen. My head (and sometimes my husband) tells me to be satisfied with well enough, but for some reason, I just can't. So yes, I know exactly where you're coming from. :blue:

[Jennie]

:grouphug: everyone. Thank you for your support.

One of my IRL friends sent me an email (she's also a friend from online) and she hit the nail on the head:

"but I think that maybe you guys need to take some time off from being OTL or TTC and just try being you guys. As much as I understand that you really would LOVE a daughter, maybe it would help a bit to step back from things for a few months? Just try being Jennie for a while, not Jennie the one whose TTC or Jennie whose pg or thinking about being pg...just Jennie. I think you might be pleasantly surprised *hugs*"

I've been really trying to do that today - I also need to get ME in a better place before we make a decision that is 100% either way. I think she's right - I need to concentrate on ME for a few months both physically and emotionally.

I'll check in again. :)