Hi ladies,

I have been ttc for 4 yrs when I got pregnant with my son.... He was such a miracle..... I did clomid and also injections.... nothing worked.... I was saving for IVF when I found out I was pregnant..... Didn't think any thing would go wrong I had a great pregnancy.... At 7 months my blood pressure started to go up... I called the hospital and they told me to come in.... I did..... They said that they wanted me to stay the night and have a u/s in the morning.... I went down for a 2 hour u/s and didn't think much of it.... When I got back to my room there were 5 nurses.... Telling me that they needed to give me an IV??? I thought they were nuts and had the wrong person.... I'm not a total dummy.... I new from the panic on everyones face that the baby was coming.... I just didn't no why??.... I was told that he wasn't growing and would do better outside my body.... He was born April 6th at 1:pm by emerg c-section.... There was a team from sick kids there for his birth.... He was taken to sick kids and looked like he was doing okay.... He lived for 4 days... My heart has been forever broken.... I so badly long for a family.... Dh has been a great support.... I'm still waiting on blood results to see if it was do to me that this happened??? His placenta had blood clots in it.... So I needed to be tested for a clotting problem.... If thats what it is I should be able to have a healthy baby with the help of baby asprin or Heprin shots?? I hope to start ttc again July!!! Just looking for someone to help me through.... As I try again.... This time hopefuly I'll get a healthy full term baby!!!

Sorry needed to vent.... My son would have been 2 months today!!!!!

Amanda
I will get pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!

Amanda, I'm SO SORRY you have gone through this! I can't read your post without crying, my heart just breaks for you. We are here for any support you need, and I hope you get your miracle baby soon.................

Thank you Lyoshka,

Its been a long hard road.... I'm still waiting for the hospital to call and still waiting for my blood results to come back.... I hope by next Tuesday I'll have some answers!!! Thanks for being there... (((hugs)))

Amanda
I will get pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Amanda - hugs for you. I am doing IVF after a late loss too, there are actually a great supportive group of us that are doing IVF on this site (Feel free to check out the IVF buddies thread if that is a route you are considering and have questions etc) We concieved twin boys on our 2nd IVF cycle and the pregnancy was going great until 23 weeks when I went into preterm labor and delivered both babies. It is a devastating thing to lose a child as you sadly know. I wanted to express my condolences and let you know you were not alone. I also was on meds and will be if we are fortunate enough to achieve pregnancy again for a slightly elevated clotting issue. I took lovenox injections daily and it was really fine. The good news is that they can treat these things if you show an issue. I am rushing now and apologize but hang in there I'll check in on you! What was your son's name?


Judy

Hi Judy,
I named my son Ryan, He was named after my brother who passed away in a fire. My son is barried under my brothers head stone... He was 1lb 8oz so small... I'm sorry for the loss of your twins.... What did you have?? How big were they.... What were there names?? I'm still waiting for the blood results to see if I have a clotting issue.... If I don't get answers soon I'm just going to start baby asprin and hope for the best!! I can't wait much longer!! I'm going crazy!!:ura1: :locolaugh

Amanda
I will get pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Amanda - Ryan is such a nice name, I'm sure your brother would have been /is very honored to be playing such an important role. Our boys were named Matthew and Andrew. They were both about 1 pound each so tiny but perfect. Its really so very bittersweet to remember. I've heard that baby aspirin is used a lot in cycles so I don't think that is a bad step. If I remember my test results took about 4 weeks to come back - a long time!


What are your plans for TTC? Any RE involvement?

Take care!
Judy

Hi Judy,

Today was my EDD June 17th.... I'm not sure how I feel right now.... I know I'm sad.... I should be all big and fat right now just waiting to pop.... I was up at 7:am and still not sure of how the day should be spent??

My work has been harasing(sp) me.:fado: ... They called Thursday and said they were short staffed and asked if I would come in for the day??? I don't think they would have called me back if my son lived.... I know that we have been short on staff many of times and they would have never called someone on mat leave to come in.... Why do they think its okay to call me????? I was so shocked:bawl: .... I've been so upset since I got my blood test results back!!! They said that they were all normal.... But get this.... except two :catfight: ... It gets even better ..... They don't know what it is?? So I still have no answers?? I see the high risk hospital June 30th and pray that they will be able to explain what's going on:help: ???????????

It took me 4 yrs to get pregnant!!!! I don't want to wait another 4 yrs...

I love your boys names..... Have you started the IVF process again already??

Amanda
++++ baby thoughts and sending you lots of sticky healthy baby dust!!!!!

Amanda I hope you got through the day ok. I know I had a really hard time in April which was when I was due. We had also done an FET cycle then (frozen embryos) and it was a BFN. The blow was doubly hard I think because of the timing. We knew that our chances were slim because we are only doing 1 embryo at a time but we are trying to avoid twins. It took us years to get pregnant too. Actually my friend's first will be 5 this year and she was bron just after we began. Her mom is waiting on her 3rd and we are still babyless - at least live babyless. Its very tough.

Work shouldn't be harassing you at all. I took a 6 week leave and going back was tough but I am glad I did it. Its nice to have something to occupy most of my week. When are you planning to go back?

Sorry there is confusion on your tests - do you know what came bak outside fo the range? Did you consult with an RE or an OBGYN? An RE may have a better sense - also a highrisk OB so make sure you ask when you go for your consult!

Take care of yourself.
hugs
Judy

Hi Judy,

I went to see my OBGYN/RE he does both, yesturday... He also called me this morning.... He said he called the lab to double check the results and they told him everthing was normal.... So the two he was unsure of is all okay??? So it seems I have no clotting issues at all... I wish he did this before I went to see him!!!! So anyway he told me a can start taking baby asprin just to be on the safe side and it wont hurt!!! So I started that last night.... I feel like I'm finally doing something to get ready to ttc again..... Finally!!!! He also gave me a note for sick leave.... that will have me off work until like the end of Nov... Not that I won't end up going back to work early.... I just feel like now I'm not being rushed....

How have you been????

Amanda

I will get pregnant!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Amanda - just checking in on you. Glad you got the leave situation resolved. I'm doing fine - preparing for another FET. Its still hard some days but I think it always will be but I am in a much better place now that I was even a couple of months ago.


Hope you are doing well!
Judy