So sad...

[MamaGoofy]

I really don't know what to say. Today marks 1 year ago that I m/c. I am so sad. I hate today. I really didn't want to get up and come to work but at the same time I didn't want to stay home alone... I hate that I don't have my baby in my arms, that I can't breastfeed anyone. I want a baby so bad and I feel like I am being punished for something that I dont' know I did. The next few weeks are going to be rough as we get closer to Mother's Day. May 8th is when I actually had my D&C so I can pretty much chalk mother's day into the garbage. Yes, I know that I already have a child and I should be grateful. Trust me I am. I just wonder why my second child was taken from me and why I haven't been blessed with another one? What is wrong with me? What have I done that was so wrong to deserve this pain? All I want is to have another child to hold, feed and love. Is that so wrong? I don't think so. I remember coming here last year and being in so much pain and wondering what was going on with me. The next two weeks I was always questioning what was going on with my body. Here I am a year later with an empty crib, empty heart and most of all an empty womb.

PLEASE GOD...GIVE ME ANOTHER BABY!!!!

:bawl:

[~Andrea~]

:sadhug: I'm sorry this has been such a rough road for you. Having a child already doesn't change how you feel about missing the baby you lost. They are 2 different people. I :pray: that by next mother's day you are holding baby #2 in your arms :hug99:

[sheila]

:hug99: Thinking of you Melissa

[jstauffer]

:hug99: I'm sorry for everything you've been going through. I m/c'd before I was pregnant with Sierra. There's still a sadness in my heart for that baby I never knew. I don't think that ever goes away.

[Julie]

:bighug: Thinking of you Melissa :bighug:

[Chantal]

:sadhug: I am thinking of you today :pray:

[Lyoshka]

Melissa, I'm so sad you are so devastated.... My prayers and hugs for you, my friend.......

[Lette]

Ah Melissa... I'm so sorry! :hug99: Has it really been a year?
I have my own date that I will never forget. :(

I will pray that someday you will get that 2nd baby.

[MamaGoofy]

:bawl: Thank you so much for all the hugs. You guys are so sweet!!

[Mary]

I'm thinking about you, Melissa. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Mary

[Shel]

Man, I just sent you a great PM with lots of enlightening words of encouragement on there. I should post it here so I sound smart :lol:

You know I love you and that I am praying for you. You can come to me anytime. :bighug:

[MamaGoofy]

:hug99: Thank you so much everyone!!

Shel: You are truly a God send!! I know you love me and I love you right back!!! :hug99:

[Denise]

:hug99: Thinking of you Melissa...

[Bev]

:hug99: You'll get there Melissa, I know it. :)

[Ana975]

I'm so very sorry Melissa. :bighug:

[MamaGoofy]

Thank you everyone. I am feeling better today. DH took us out to dinner last night so I didn't have to worry about that. Not to mention we just got back from the beach. Ahhh so relaxing. I did nothing but laid on my blanket and slept!! Sooo relaxing. I made dh chase David around :biggrin:

[Silke]

Good for you getting a relaxing day in there. :hug99: