Is there anyone else here who can relate. I am tired of having to struggle with my weight loss every time I want to consider ttc'ing... I am tired of knowing that once I reach my weight loss goal, that I then have to face the Clomid coller coaster ride... I am tired of the whole taking my temp every morning, watching cm, wasting money on OPK's (which I will NEVER do again), dealing with that dreaded 2 week wait and that CD 24 progesterone blood test... just tired... Now I am faced with the added bonus of having an underactive thyroid - it is under control with medication... but should I get pregnant again... it "can" be an issue during pregnancy.

Some days I think that I should just count my one little blessing, my daughter and give up on ever having any more children... then the next day - I am upset for thinking that way, after seeing how well my daughter plays with other kids, how much she loves being around little babies, and hearing her ask me to get a baby in my tummy soon.

It's a constant tug-of-war... I never feel like I am winning... I just wish I could get pregnant, have another baby and have a hysterectomy so that I NEVER EVER have to deal with the whole TTC package ever again... Instead I can focus on my family, my health and enjoy life again... instead of always being faced with what I cant have - and the reasons why... ie: cant get pregnant, because of PCOS, weight issues, ect...

Needed a safe place to rant... Thanks http://www.soulcysters.net/images/smilies/smile.gif

I can totally relate to everything you just posted.:hug1: There is no easy way to go about it...ttc with IF just plain sucks! Rant all you want! It's nice to be able to get it all out without knowing that someone is going to hit you with a million platitudes. I swear, if I hear "Just relax and it will happen" one more time!:furious:

Feel free to PM me if you ever just need to vent. It sounds like we have a lot of the same issues!

I just came here to post the same thing. Some days I wonder why I even bother getting out of bed. I am CD27 and still no signs of O. And that's on 150 mg. clomid :bawl:

Here I am almost 4 years after starting TTC and still no kid so yes I can understand where you are coming from. I have a lot of weight still to lose. How much do you have to lose when you get to goal and how did that impact your TTC?

My lucky number was 175lbs... now I know for most that is still SUPER high... bug given that my pre-weight loss weight was 211lbs... 175lbs was a great acheivement. Right now I need to drop another 20lbs to reach that magic number. Now, that is in no way a guarantee that I will conceive easily a 2nd time around... but at least I know that it puts me in the right direction for conceiving successfully.


Andrea :hug99:

:hug99: I'm sorry for everything you are going through. I can definitely relate. I have hypothyroid, PCOS, TTC for 2 years, have gone through numerous tests, 3 rounds of clomid with IUI, and finally IVF to get my twin blessings. During this time I have battled so many things, weight being a major issue. Because of my thyroid problem, I couldn't lose weight or even keep off weight I did finally lose. Then add the fertility drugs on top of that and it just made it worse. The next thing was all the insensitive comments I got from people. All I want to say is that I really hope that everything will work out for you and that you won't have to go through this battle for too much longer. Infertility really sucks and I'm so sorry you have to go through this. :bighug:

I got PG at 275 :blush:

I could have written your post. :bighug: I have been ttc #2 for 22 months now and it stinks! I recently had my ovaries drilled and I am now up to 200 mg. of clomid. We are trying for a few more months and then we are going to consider ourselves done. This is an emotional roller coaster that is draining. Feel free to vent all you want - it's what we're all thinking!

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I did clomid at 260lbs and PCOS and was blessed to get pregnant twice with that (after a year of trying)... then after having my two boys I decided it was time to kick this PCOS in the butt and went on a big diet, I lost 89lbs (still had 40 odd to go) when I found out I was suprise pregnant! I was around the 180lb mark and it happened naturally for me. I hope the same happens for you.... PCOS bites big time! but there are alot of of us dealing with it so if you need anythign you know where we are!

Wow like everyone else I could have written your post. So it's good for you to get it out. You're in good company. I too have PCOS, endo, low progesterone, etc. I have been struggling to lose the weight from my first pgy's that was over 2 years ago. But slowly I'm getting there. I start my glucophage soon so that will help with losing the weight. Before our first ivf we tried for over a year and nothing. After being pg it helped somewhat. Now I can get pg every month I try but have yet to be able to carry the baby.:( It's been 6 times now that we've lost our babies. I'm so tired and depressed with all we've been thru. I too feel like maybe we should stop. I so badly want another child, just like you for all your reasons. But I also know that I can't stand to lose another baby. I really wish that none of us every had to go thru any of this.

For the weight question, I have read that even 10% of your body weight can make a big difference. Course for most of us that is over 20 lbs, not easy to lose with PCOS. But at least it isn't 1/2 the weight. I am heavier now than I was before I got pg thru ivf and I acutally have much better cycles now than I ever did. So who knows.

Sarah